Confession: for the past two weeks now I have barely gotten any work done at my internship. I try to force myself to do something, but I can't seem to focus. I work in a room with about 40-50 cubicles, so throughout the day I hear a lot of different conversations. As I sit in my cubicle, I have my headphones with me and tune into Pandora, but for part of the day (usually the beginning and end), I listen to the chatter and meetings that are happening in the other cubicles. It didn't take me long to realize that these people really love their jobs. Really. I think this realization has contributed to my current funk, because I can care less about my work. And I can't think of one job that I've ever cared about. This makes me sad. I long to have a job that I'm passionate about.
Even though I think I've figured out what career path I would like to pursue (Human Resources), I really need to find a job in that field first, even just as an assistant. Due to my past work and academic experience, I don't want to devote my time to grad school and then figure out after I'm done that I really don't like HR. But what scares me the most is actually finding a job in that field and then realizing that I really don't like it either. If that happens, I'm totally back to the drawing board: SCARY!
This is just another area in my life where I feel like I'm so behind. I thought I would be in a career that I am passionate about by now, but I feel very much passion-Less. This has definitely been a prayer request of mine for awhile now, and I know that God works on His time. Maybe there are some lessons that I still need to learn before I embark into something new. I have certainly learned a lot during this summer alone. I pray that at least a portion of God's will for my life be revealed to me soon...a sneak peak God?
I know exactly how you feel. I've been begging for a Blue's Clue from God for the past three years. You're right though, everything works out in His timing. For now, I'm learning now is patience, contentment and trust: hard lessons! Even when you're not sure of anything else, you can be sure of one thing - you're right where He wants you to be. Someday you'll look back and see meaning in it all. For now, trust that He's got it figured out and enjoy the journey ;)
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Thanks Dean! All that you've said is true, and of course deep down inside, I know this. The reminder is always needed tho, and very timely I might add :-)
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