This most definitely is wedding season. I have already gone to 2 weddings this year, and I think I have about 5-7 more to go before the year is over...and I'm a bridesmaid in 2 of those weddings. The fact that the majority of my friends and people I grew up with are either in very committed relationships, on their way to the altar, or married already is both exciting and weird. I'm genuinely excited and happy for them; jealously is NOT of God and it's not helpful, so whenever it begins to rear it's ugly head, I rebuke it in the name of Jesus! But it's weird because it's so life altering; when their overall relationship status changes, life changes a little bit.
So lately, this is what has been bothering me a little bit. As I read the "His Story" and "Her Story" on the various wedding websites, the couples usually describe their long friendships before it turned into something more. So....not only am I not in a committed relationship, I don't even have any really close guy friendships (that might actually turn into more). Great... why???
As I look back over the friendships I have had in the past, I can't help but wonder if I let a good guy slip through the cracks. I'm not sure this is healthy though...flipping through my internal files and asking "What if?". I'm gonna have to put more trust in God. I have to trust that He wouldn't let anyone "slip through the cracks"...especially if that person was designed for me.
So for now, I'll keep attending weddings. I've been enjoying them thus far. I like dressing up, helping others plan their wedding, and thinking about what I might like at my own one day. I just hope that I won't have to wear 27 (bridesmaid) dresses before my own Big Day.
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