Bottled Up

I admit that I keep things bottled up inside. I hate complaining; and I hate complaining to people who probably have no idea how to relate to me. I know that I am not the only person going through the things I go through, but no one that I know is going through my current tribulation, so I keep it to myself. Talking through problems usually help most people, but not I. Talking about my issues makes me depressed and sad. And since none of my friends are or have ever been in my situation, whenever I am cornered into explaining the current state, the facial expressions, comments, and “advice” makes me feel even worse. I know everyone means well, but that’s why I rather keep it to myself.

I refuse to cry about it. I refuse to become depressed. I’m not the first person this has happened to (I just don’t know any of them). I know that there are tons of people in WAY worse situations. I know that I could’ve avoided this whole situation. I know that asking “what if” doesn’t help. I know I need to make plans for the future. I know that this SUCKS! I know that in 1.5, 3, or 10 years from now, IT’S NOT GOING TO MATTER!

Now that, makes me happy.

And I know this post is kind of vague *kanye shrug*